Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
being free from bondage is the best feeling in the entire world!, when your mind is being held hostage it is so much harder to escape then it would be if you were handcuffed to metal bars inside of a cage.
people think just because you can visual see one's handicapp, that it's a bad thing, but little do people know the mental handicapp is 10 times worst.
you can always shine up on the outside and look like a million dollars, but no one really can see the inside hurts that one may indure, or the broken heart that needs mending or the cries out for help that one could be screaming!
usually those are the people who lead you on to believe that they got their stuff together, and are very secure in their life, and very confident in everything they do, but in all reality, they need for someone to love them, and give the security that they need, and the happiness they DESERVE!!!
when you have been doing time in your mind, it takes more time to rebuildatate yourself, because first you have to clear out all the damage that was done, and then try and figure out the starting point to beginning the life that you have so much wanted from the beginnin of time.
they say you can't miss what you never had, but i beg to differ, i miss not having the chance to experience what i always wanted, and that was for someone to love me for me, and make me the happiest person in the world.
it's real funny none of this never was a factor in my life, until i got divorced after 23 years of marriage (less then 6 mos. ago), but now that i've cleared my mind i think i will be one hell of a soul/help mate for someone. i'm not lookin for a man, i want the man to look for me, and without having anything to loose, i'll be very selective in what i want, and will not have to just settle because i've already served my time in that field.
i'm so glad that i'm not bitter because while i did sell out, i wasn't miserable until the very end.
for the most part, i was able to raise 2 wonderful children in a very established home, and was able to provide their every need, and wants, and the stability was what made our family life a success.
my misery was within myself, and once i experienced a season in my life, that made me wake up, and realize that i was a women first, before i was a wife and mother.
the season i had allowed me to see that i was someone really special, and that i could be happy, i could feel good, and most of all not to waste anymore time investing in something that wasn't even worth having no matter how good it looked.
bowing out gracefully was real easy, didn't take nothing, just my heart and left, all of the material things have been replaced, and my heart has mended and the next episode is right around the corner...........
people think just because you can visual see one's handicapp, that it's a bad thing, but little do people know the mental handicapp is 10 times worst.
you can always shine up on the outside and look like a million dollars, but no one really can see the inside hurts that one may indure, or the broken heart that needs mending or the cries out for help that one could be screaming!
usually those are the people who lead you on to believe that they got their stuff together, and are very secure in their life, and very confident in everything they do, but in all reality, they need for someone to love them, and give the security that they need, and the happiness they DESERVE!!!
when you have been doing time in your mind, it takes more time to rebuildatate yourself, because first you have to clear out all the damage that was done, and then try and figure out the starting point to beginning the life that you have so much wanted from the beginnin of time.
they say you can't miss what you never had, but i beg to differ, i miss not having the chance to experience what i always wanted, and that was for someone to love me for me, and make me the happiest person in the world.
it's real funny none of this never was a factor in my life, until i got divorced after 23 years of marriage (less then 6 mos. ago), but now that i've cleared my mind i think i will be one hell of a soul/help mate for someone. i'm not lookin for a man, i want the man to look for me, and without having anything to loose, i'll be very selective in what i want, and will not have to just settle because i've already served my time in that field.
i'm so glad that i'm not bitter because while i did sell out, i wasn't miserable until the very end.
for the most part, i was able to raise 2 wonderful children in a very established home, and was able to provide their every need, and wants, and the stability was what made our family life a success.
my misery was within myself, and once i experienced a season in my life, that made me wake up, and realize that i was a women first, before i was a wife and mother.
the season i had allowed me to see that i was someone really special, and that i could be happy, i could feel good, and most of all not to waste anymore time investing in something that wasn't even worth having no matter how good it looked.
bowing out gracefully was real easy, didn't take nothing, just my heart and left, all of the material things have been replaced, and my heart has mended and the next episode is right around the corner...........
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